If they say a picture paints a thousand words then i guess everytime i load srcoyotes blog i see a thousand words of euphoria, joy, passion, love, touch rugby, laughter, each and every one of our names, aisya,
and most importantly, team. ONE MIND, ONE MOVE, SRCOYOTE.
There comes a point when fatigue consumes, when all we do is give and never get anything back in justification of what we want. And its not even a selfish personal want, its when you put something you want for a team above yourself you give all you can give, take the burden you don't exactly have to bear upon yourself until you wear yourself down and you start wondering if people appreciate you at all (not that you care) but nothing doesn't seem to move in your direction you start doubting what you believed in the first place.
To be honest, Aisya, to date none of us has ever held anything against you, you coach us in a way none of my coaches (and i believe none of all our coaches) have. The innate respect we/i have for you doesn't speak from how we play together with you or from how we joke around with you, but with the corner of our hearts that SRCoyotes is where we are because of a coach like you, who is also a dear friend/confidante/motivator of ours.
You redefined the definition of a coach, a coach who's showed her want for her team to move forward together, not because she's being paid for it, not because she's given any credit for it, but purely because you see the potential in all of us as we come together and SRCoyotes is a team you want to be with because you want to see us do so much more, and more importantly you BELIEVE we can do so much more.
No doubt there're alot of pressure above us and externalities misunderstanding us for misusing field ): No doubt we're a budding team who's still dealing with people who come and go and is still learning to play with each other to discover the chemistry with each and every one of us to see moves on the pitch, to perfect a finish. And even so, we're just like kids who make excuses for ourselves most of the time. We go through the same falling and picking up process, and we learn from our mistakes. Sometimes we give our half hearted effort because there's a part of us that's lazy, sometimes we give nonsense because there's a part of us that refuses to cooperate, sometimes we bitch, because there's a part of us that's still the bully in high school. There's a whole long list of excuses i can make, but ultimately the list will run out, and so will the excuses. I know there comes a point after giving and waiting you get disappointed over and over again not by results, but by our attitude. I know there comes a point when you start doubting what you believe when you first took us and also a point where you stop expecting because that way the slightest achievement can make your day,
but
Aisya, the team is only complete with you and you have no idea how much you've taught us (and this sunday mother's day is specially dedicated to you haha no la)
Ultimately we can only see one move with you, and one direction with you and that is moving up to achieving what can set out to do. There're alot of things i wish i could change (like the pressure from up above, which doesn't seem to understand we have a goal together AS A TEAM) but i'm sorry that even we disappoint you when you go against all odds to fight for us and all we do is sit and watch you do it for us.
Let us bear this fatigue for you, i know time is not on our side, i know the team has to grow up, from our captains to our players alike. We'll try together to make this work even when there're people who are taking some away from us and those who doubt us or think we're kids, we'll show them we're together as one so strong they can't even pull us apart.
and we'll only be stronger if we go through this together, quote unquote.
love,
eho
