hello munchkins

bear with my virgin entry, I'm very much dissatisfied with me not writing in the blog, and those sarcastic remarks i get from Jane Boey aka Paris.

I don't know how long I can stay in cayotes, i understand that at the end of the day, the choice lies with me, but people envision different dreams for me, and bigger picture is, I have a stronger desire to be a better player than what I am now.

I love playing with cayotes, in the team, I've learnt to be accomodative, understanding and enjoyed the game with you guys very much. Though seldom do I show it, I find freedom in expression in this team that I may never get in another. The team has alot of potential, but what's potential without the need to succeed. I understand we all do put in effort to make a better team, to build better players, in fact, we even build rapport amongst ourselves, so close that I do think others envy. But, is this effort enough?Will whatever effort we put in be enough?No. Because coaches and teammates judge us by potential. And if they think you've got alot more to offer, they'll ask for it, again and again till they are satisfied.

I know playing with me is pressurising, I myself feel likewise, I wish to prove many people wrong about cayotes, about my cayotes, because what I see this team could do is what they have never thought of.But time is not in my favour, this season might be my last with you. But I'd like to think that with a few players gone, all the rest will step up to take the role. I don't wish to see anyone give up, not on yourself, not on the team.

I used to not like aisyah's coaching method because once she said to me, 'nure, can you be more creative?' I know that night i went, WTF. I was coached by Boo for 3 years and could you expect creative plays? I only understand smart moves that would score than fancy cacat moves that needs a whole lot more thinking and effort to score. I don't understand then what she meant by creative plays, because I didn't learn to involve anyone in my move. But looking back on the previous saturday score, the feeling i get is super humongous that I can't pinpoint what it is. Was it orgasmic jane?Maybe, And then, on the way home I kept thinking of the play, of the move, of the feeling, and I now wish everyone of us get to experience it. So, this 2 more games, i want to make everyone taste the 'orgasmic' feeling at least once.

And yar, Aisyah, no try are cheap try, even when it was a tad lucky. It's still considered a try.Blergh You!!

p.s: i know some of you are not in there,i'm sorry, we should get a new family photo.yes Barney?